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    The Only One in the Room

    Sometimes it is difficult when you are the only one in the room.  The only one that looks like you, that speaks like you, and the only one that thinks like you.  Sometimes it is a challenge when you are the only one who brings the passion that you do, the feelings you do, and the perspective that you do.  It feels lonely sometimes to be the only one in the room.  What about the moments when you stand out in the room, but you are not sure if people see that as a blessing or a curse?  How do you handle knowing that not many people in the room know who you truly are?  When…

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    Yesterday I was looking through my gallery, on my phone, in an attempt to get rid of photos and videos that I no longer need. While going through my pictures, I came across this photo. My mind immediately went back to September 2018. I remember so vividly driving myself to the emergency room in excruciating pain and thinking I would receive medicine to pass a kidney stone and be back home in time to pick my kids up from school. Well, I was wrong. I had no idea that I was septic and very sick. That emergency room visit turned into a 4-day hospital stay. I remember the urologist and…

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    When Faith is All You Have

    What do you do when faith is all you have? Most of us will go through moments when we are waiting for God to fulfill our heart’s desire. We will go through times when there will be a loss that we can’t seem to understand. There will be situations when we will receive a “no” instead of the “yes” that we so desperately hoped for. There will be times when things are seemingly falling apart and it feels that no one understands. So, what do you do in those moments?  In the moments where faith is all you have. The moments when you can only believe because you cannot see…

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    The Little Red Ball

    When we moved to Kenny’s last duty station we spent the first eight days in a hotel.  The first night we arrived we had some trouble with the room so we were changed to a different room, a suite, the next morning.  I worked in a hotel for a few years so I am one that can be very picky when it comes to hotel rooms.  When we got into the room I immediately began to check both areas of the suite to make sure that it was clean.  I started in the bedroom area and after that, I planned to work my wake back up to the front.  All…

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    Me, is Who I Choose to Be

    I remember a time when I resented many things about myself.  The way I looked, the way I thought, and my passions.  Why did I have to be different?  Why did I have to be shaped this way?  Why did I have to care the way I care?  Why couldn’t I be physically stronger?  Why was I so emotional? I was often misunderstood and my words were ignored which caused severe insecurities and a lack of confidence.  These are just some of the things that caused me to dislike God’s breathtaking creation, ME.  Now, I have finally learned to fully love and embrace myself, therefore, me, is who I choose…

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    Don’t Go Off of How You Feel, Go Off of What He says

    I feel unloved.  I feel unworthy.  I feel like a failure.  I feel weak.  I feel as though I will never succeed.  I feel ugly.  I feel alone.  I am afraid.  All of these are thoughts that many of us have had at least one time in our lives as a result of how we have felt.  Sometimes, these feelings will consume our days and nights.  We allow these feelings to stop us from believing in ourselves and in our abilities.  These very feelings, which are so common, are extremely dangerous to our present as well as our future.  These feelings, although very real, are only feelings.  They are not…

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    Remember Me

    Remember me, I am the same God who parted the Red Sea.  Remember me, I am the same God who healed the sick, caused the blind to see and the lame to walk.  Remember me, I am the same God who caused the dead to rise.  Remember me, I am the same God who spoke the world into existence.  Remember me, I am the same God who sent my son to die on the cross only to rise with all power in his hands.   Remember me, I am still your Abba Father.  Remember me, I am still El Elyon the most high God.  I still reign above any other. …

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    This Moment

    This Moment God, I thank you for this moment.  This moment to give you glory for all that you have been to me.  I thank you for this moment to love my husband and my kids.  I thank you for this moment to embrace life as it is today.  I thank you for this moment to enjoy the sunrise.  I thank you for this moment to laugh at the little things.  I thank you for this moment to dance and play with my kids.  I thank you for this moment to tell my mom that I love her.  I thank you for the memorable phone calls with my girls. I…

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    Forgive Yourself

    Forgive Yourself Forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made.  Forgive yourself for the wrong decisions.  Forgive yourself for not being the perfect parent.  Forgive yourself for not being the perfect child.  Forgive yourself for not being the perfect student. Forgive yourself!  Forgive yourself for not being where you think you should be in life.  Forgive yourself for not getting it right the first time.  Forgive yourself for not getting it right the second time. Forgive yourself for not being the perfect wife.  Forgive yourself for not being the perfect husband.  Forgive yourself for not being the perfect employee.  Forgive yourself!  Forgive yourself for taking time for you.  Forgive yourself…

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    Here We Go, Again

    It has only been four months since you left but it seems like forever already. Here we go, again, yes, again. Here we go with the lonely nights and days of feeling blue because we are trying to understand how to cope with missing you. Here we go again with the heartache of watching the kids cry because they had no idea how long it would be when they told you good-bye. Here we go again with the fears of you being gone and the daily prayer that God will please allow you to make it home. Here we go again, yes, again. Here we go again with the random…